Confession

Hidup ini ada satu yg x kena.. i feel like no keselesaan,ketenangan,ketenteraman dalam jiwa...aku cuba mencari jawapan dalam diri whats wrong with me???..its not bcoz i dont have anyone in my life...i have family, friends a lot ..sudah cukup memadai untuk aku..perfectly..keje??? standard la keje mana2 pn...stress,tekanan, sampai hujung nyawa xkn habis pn asyik keje+keje+keje...cuma kena pandai bahagi masa la ...kewangan??? ada pasang surut..tapi itu semua ada lah rezeki...Alhamdulillah...

Then what's wrong???

Akhirnya aku menyedari satu perkara..i've been missing my prayers yang sepatutnya menjadi kewajipan ku stp waktu.. and other practices like wirid,yassin every Thursday or any other day..& also my Quran is now juz standing near my bed yang jarang sekali aku sentuh..aku merasakan aku adalah org yg plg teruk di muka bumi ini..ada kemudahan+kudrat untuk melakukan nya especially wajib but failed to do so..


Inilah jawapannya..i know ini adalah sesuatu yg amat peribadi...but i feel i'm not only the person who is in the prayer, i kept on telling my self..'i shall perform my solat for next waktu then' or 'takpe..nanti leh ganti' or many excuses made to my self. This happened many times ..I KNOW I KNOW...ALLAH loves me..thats why i fell the calling everytime ..miss my 'intimate' with ALLAH


Well, the answer is should 'feelings so religious inside today'...Insya Allah

p/s :it's all about reminding ourselves...but I've been quite open about my weaknesses and flaws coz i believe ramai yg sama macam i tapi ashamed to admit to it. I believe in sharing. Tak semua. Kita kena tau filter la kan. But kita tak tau when we share or kita dah luahkan, we'll be more inspired to be a better person.